The indulgence comes from a happy place? My friend said that to me. I agree that the indulgence should come from a better place than me covertly emotionally eating stale chocolate alone on the couch. But maybe best not to attach any emotion to it? Hmmm... still pondering.
I am also debating whether or not I should since I had that meltdown-M&M binge. Do I deserve it? Heck NO! But I want the indulgence BAD. I'm also worried that it could trigger another shameful episode of eating. Man this blog feels so narcissistic. ME, ME, ME. I'm kind of sick of me right now.
The indulgence is on YOUR TERMS. It's a mandatory part for your mental health!
ReplyDeleteI think the deliberate nature of the indulgence is what makes it a learning experience. I've had a history of emotional eating too, and the food doesn't really matter -- you just want to EAT. But deciding on an indulgence, the anticipation, the pleasure of planning within the framework of the hard work we're doing -- that is actually a way to point to your emotional state itself. Does that make sense? :)
ReplyDeleteDitto to what Tara said...
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel about the narcissism of this project, but this project is all about you. How you look, how you feel, YOU. :) Get used to it! You'll have to live with yourself for the rest of your life.