Today was a suckaroo day. Got woken up early by thunder and lightning. It poured sheets and no way was I going to the gym for the chest dips. I did the jump rope this morning but it stunk big time. I tripped every six jumps. The two-minute sets shouldn't have been too hard but I never found a rhythm.
At work, I was hungry all freakin day. It probably doesn't help that the AC (which I am normally grateful for) was blasting beyond reason. I was shivering at my desk most of the day and usually would turn to some food for warmth and comfort. It took a supreme amount of self control to resist the bowl of Hershey's miniatures that my colleague set out. She came up and offered it to me and I said "No thanks". But every time I walked by the common area, it was a concerted effort not to reach into the bowl and grab a few. I had an extra cup of coffee but that didn't help.
Raced home to avoid getting stuck in another storm. Promptly collapsed onto the couch and so wanted to nap. I was procrastinating from the rest of the workout even though I knew the longer I delayed, the longer it would be before eating sad dinner. I texted my friend and asked for words of encouragement. His response - "What would Sarah do?" I responded with an expletive-laced text but it got me off the couch. Y'all read right. Sarah, I was so inspired by your pics and your awesome post-two-kid-bikini bod that I couldn't shut up about it to my friend. He was teasing me as a joke but now it's fallen into the go-to three phrases of motivation category.
The weather seems to have cleared up a bit. Perhaps symbolic lifting of my foul mood? Who knows? I gotta stop watching cooking shows. It makes me very resentful of this damn process and the limitations on my freedom. All that beautiful fresh food being prepared that I can't have. I have been at the same weight for 12 days now! Ugh.. I'm sure it's related to my episodes of going off the reservation but someone throw me a bone already.
hahahahahaha "what would sarah do". im using that too now. no pressue sarah!
ReplyDeleteDONT WATCH THE PUDDING EPISODES. it´'s just torture.
hope tomorrow is better for you.
Weight is a meaningless number when you're adding this much muscle. Chillax!
ReplyDeleteI am proud of you saying no thanks to Hershey's. It is hard !
ReplyDeleteI had those days that I procrastinate my workout knowing that means dinner will be late.
Isn't it great that as soon as you hear Sarah's name you jumped out of your couch ! Ha ha.
Your pics look great ! Your shoulders are BADASS !
OMG - I am laughing hysterically. LOLZ!!!!
ReplyDeleteSeriously. That is too funny.
Especially when I've been in some kind weirdo mind-f*#% zone, half-way wishing I was down in the valley with the rest of my team! (Yes, I'm jinxing myself, pls kill me now).
Anyway, whatever works! Glad you responded with expletives - it's the only right response!!
just accept the lame-o dinner right now. in the end you're going to love that you have that tool in your health/weight loss arsenal. sounds like you need to have some fun cooking for your lunches! i do a big amt of cooking in the mornings, for big breakfast and lunch, and it satisfies my need to create in the kitchen. try it! then maybe you won't feel the sadness about dinner so much.
ReplyDelete@patrick, i know weight is a meaningless number but the sports I play require reaching a final score first ahead of the other team. in lieu of not seeing as much of a physical difference to justify constantly saying NO, NO, NO to stuff i wanna eat, it would be nice to get some other validation, e.g. a change in weight.
ReplyDelete@Naoko, Thanks! i'm glad someone's proud cause it certainly ain't me right now.
@Sarah, we need you to be chipper and positive. but no pressure, if you do dip a little into the valley, that's ok too. :P
@Elena, i like what i eat at lunch. there's just not enough of it. but you're right, need to reach acceptance of sad dinner. i did find some monster fuji apples at the store today so that made me a lot happier. i think i'll try out your pancake recipe this weekend. i saved that one from way back when you posted :P
I thought of you last night because I had big apples from the store and little apples from my farmshare basket. I was like hmmm am I big apple hungry or little apple hungry.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. We are stronger than the tiny dinner!
Yep, big apples help. I also found that slicing the apple and eating it that way (instead of just chomping big bites out of it) made it last a little longer and feel like a real "meal". (Kind of.)
ReplyDeleteHang in there, you really are doing great!