day 45 - mission accomplished (squared)

Pizza and Beer. Pizza and Beer. Pizza and Beer.

No, I didn't consume any but I thought about it, A LOT. Played another all day volleyball tournament and my ride wanted to join her crew at UNO's, home of tasty deep dish pizza. Pre-pcp Grace would have been all about a nice big gooey slice with tons of pepperoni and cheese and a refreshing beer after a long day of play. I'm actually salivating right now thinking about the pizza.

My friend is a lovely and amazing person and felt very responsible for getting me home. I just wish she didn't keep telling everyone she couldn't go cause of MY diet. Of course I got the usual protests - "You're so thin already, why are you dieting?"; "You're skinny minnie, you need to eat and you played all day." Some of the group said they were gonna go and eat salad. But ain't no way I'm turning down pizza and beer when it's in front of me. So I asked around (and begged) for someone, anyone to drive me to the metro. I was lucky that a really nice guy happened to live not far from me and even dropped me off at my apt. Thanks Joe!

It has been a momentous day. I reached goal weight on day 45! I wanted to be 133 by my 33rd birthday. (I like the synchronicity in numbers.) I'm a whole month early and it would have been so easy to slide down that slippery slope. Of course I can have pizza, I reached my goal AND I played all day. But for these next 45 days, I am committed (or as much as I can be as a flawed human) to staying the course. I really don't want to go through the cycle of shame and self-hate when I go off the reservation cause it won't just be a little nibble. Y'all know that. It would be full tilt binge/indulgence. Am I saying I won't ever have pizza and beer again? HELL NO! But for the latter half of this project, I won't.

I was not thrilled that my ride kept telling everyone I was on a diet, which I am, but it's so much more. It's a total lifestyle change. Sarah mentioned awhile back about discussing our other reasons for doing the pcp, besides losing weight and getting hot and strong. (Btw, "Hot and Strong" is how my friend Sam introduced me to everyone at the housewarming a couple weeks ago. I kinda like it. :P)

High blood pressure, diabetes and alcoholism run in my family. I'm very fond of sweets and drinking. I used to say with pride that I come from a long line of women who can eat savory and sweet. Both my grandmothers had adult onset diabetes and my dad was an alcoholic. I'm no good at self control and I definitely used to have the mindset of better eat and drink now while I can cause I won't be able to later. Obviously, it's not very healthy or sound.